Stepping Outside of My Comfort Zone

I've come to the realization that life is way too short! You may be alive and well today then BOOM  there you are lying dead at your open casket funeral tomorrow. Many people that have passed didn’t know that the day of their death would be their last day waking up. Those of us that are still alive are not much different. Being that tomorrow is not promised why not live life to the fullest!? Why not start that business now or go sky diving or buy that bag you’ve always wanted?  Why not do it now? Really, what are you waiting on?! The only thing that is truly holding you back is YOU. You are in control of your life. If you really want to do it, do it now.  Not tomorrow but right this minute. It all starts with changing your mindset . Break up with  procrastination and excuse-making, it's a very unhealthy relationship. I swear I’ve treated procrastination like my best friend. For example, this blog. I’ve wanted to create this page since 9th grade. I have held off on doi

"I exist without the body... THERE IS A BEING SPEAKING THROUGH THE SHELL"  -KRS I watched this video a couple days ago and I felt like this is something you all should be exposed to. He opened my mind to a perspective that I, like many others, have always questioned. Our voice and inner thoughts are powered by something larger than ourselves, something that is more abstract than we think. The body is merely a shell for the transpiring energy that is stored within itself. Mind blowing right? My mind instantly began racing and so many questions came about. The other day I had a conversation with a friend on this manner. We spoke about eternal life and reincarnation. I am a strong believer that our bodies are put to rest (in other words death) but our souls continue to prosper in another "shell". From the continuation of time we've all walked the Earth but every time we die our energy comes back in a new form. Whether it's the body of a huma

*** Block. Delete. Repeat. poem provided in last post** At the time I was on a blocking streak. If I were to get the wrong vibes... BLOCK! If someone was hitting my line way too many times and I'm not responding... BLOCK! If I felt as if someone held no substance in my life... BLOCK, BLOCK, BLOCK and that was final. But for the most part my x inspired me to write this poem when I did. He thought sh*t was sweet. He believed that no matter how he treated me I wouldn't leave him because I loved him soooo much 😒... Ya damn skippy. One day he pushed me to my limit. I cut him off with the swiftness and blocked him on every social media site possible. Half of me did this to be petty and the other half was making an adult decision. I realized that the "love of my life" was merely a toxic being that prohibited me from receiving my blessings. After I cut ties with him things really started looking up for me. Everything in my life was progressing and I never felt bett

Block. Delete. Repeat.  I wish you were here to see me doing better without you   Mostly because you thought I never could   I want to rub it in your face ... oh yeeaaahh that would feel so good   I wish I knew how dumb you felt losing someone like me   Someone with so much love, strength, courage,and positivity   I bet it sucks to suck   You had love and luck but you fucked it up   And I bet your sad   Boo hoo poor you   No ... Boo hoo poor me   I can't even smile with glee I can't even enjoy your misery   Because you're so m.i.a you can't even see the new me   But ultimately how could you ?   I blocked you on every site   I don't even remember what your number looks like   Our messages are erased so I don't know if your iMessaging me No dm, no Snapchat, no emails, no tweet After pressing block this contact I also pressed delete  

**Personal Shoutouts for Ying Yang Show!** Before I start I want to give a big thanks to Sariah Johnson for selecting me to be apart of this masterpiece. The Ying Yang show wouldn't of been such a success without your leadership. You are truly amazing #BlackGirlPower. I also want to give a shout out to my two runway partners Josiah Roebuck and Shane Woods for being so cooperative and adaptable. I'm so glad that we were partnered together because we delivered a remarkable performance! And of course there would not be a performance without choreography. I also want to thank La'Raven Rouse for coming up with the turn sequence. She always comes up with something creative every single time and deserves all the props she gets. I am giving my dear friend, Delano B., a shout out for styling our all white looks for the show. You took on a hard task and showed how great of a designer you truly are. Lastly, I wouldn't have any recollection of this night without Brandon Gardener.

 I knew life had its ups and downs but at the time it seemed as if there was no up because everything continued to go downhill. Around this time last year I reached one of the lowest points I had ever been in my entire life. Everyday was Halloween, I wore the most natural mask you'd ever seen. On the outside I was this jolly bundle of joy but internally I was battling with severe depression. I had several negative thoughts rambling through my head on a daily. Day by day my gloomy thoughts clouded my outlook on life and to be quite frank I just wanted to die. I will be the first to admit that I had intentions to commit suicide on several occasions. The key to stopping your depression is self awareness. I was not aware of how ill I was until my suicidal thoughts came about. Thankfully I did not do anything to harm myself and I never plan on doing so but I did realize that I was not okay, I was not healthy emotionally and mentally. I had to be real with myself... I needed help.